02 December 2009


Some people live more in twenty years than others do in eighty. It's not the time that matters, it's the person. I'm old enough to know that a longer life isn't always a better one. In the end, you just get tired. Tired of the struggle. Tired of losing everyone that matters to you. Tired of watching everything turn to dust. If you live long enough, the only certainty left is that you end up alone. ~The Doctor, Dr. Who.

Recently, I've been wishing for my own private adventure. The yearning for stories to be true is too hard to bear sometimes. In fact, I can't tell you quite how it feels like. Imagine feeling like there's a hole inside, and knowing what will fill the hole, but being unable to do so. Or the sadness that the adventures you read about could never happen, or that there's no more room for exploration. It feels empty.

 Unfortunately, this yearning has put me in a rather odd state of mind. If you've had the misfortune of interacting with me in any way the past few days, I apologize.  I'll be depressed about the lack of adventures, Doctors, and heroes in the world for a while... Not necessarily in that order.



  1. I did notice you seemed a little out of it on Tuesday... I'll be praying for you :) perhaps we can arrange an adventure for you... *pokes your OI from last year*

  2. ... Yeah, and a little loony in study hall today. :P

  3. Can I feel depressed with you?

    Wait--- I have a better answer. Let's go find a life-threateningly dangerous adventure ti live together, eh?

    If it takes us a while to find it, you should do what I do- WRITE an adventure. Even if it's totally stupid and implausible, writing and adventure gives you a bit of that desired purpose and tingly adrenaline rush.

  4. hmmm, i like Bracie's idea very much.. I might just have to write one for you, Problematic :D